Sad, but common encounters.

Thursday, May 14, 2015

This happened today, I did a post awhile back on my thoughts on feminism.

As I was walking to my car this morning in the South End, I was holding onto a bunch of things that couldn't fit in my bag...A pair of heels being one of those things since my Auntie Madeline's wake is later on tonight. I passed by two older men, one loudly said "I'd like to see you in just those heels" they both laughed. Of course I replied with a, "ha, well you never will.." And then they got mad and both started throwing all sorts of degrading names at me as I continued walking (literally every name under the sun) Moral of the story, woman aren't sexual objects, no one wants to hear your nasty thoughts, who raised you?... and these little things are reminders why feminism needs to be a topic of more discussion.

This is not okay, I shouldn't have to worry about hearing comments like this ever. Things need to change. 

Meet Adam!

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

       So lets talk about Adam. Hi Adam
Some of you may be curious as to how I met this guy that is always in my pictures, or who I am always mentioning- its sort of a funny story. When I finally moved all of my things into my apartment on state street in Boston, my mother and I went out to eat at a restaurant right down the street that was fairly new. Our waiter was incredibly friendly! I told him how I was moving right up the street and he asked me if I was looking for a job because they were on the lookout for a new hostess. My mom of course was like "YOU SHOULD DO IT." I said "why not" and took the application. I needed my resume, which I did not have so I had to wait to fill it out and drop it off. 
       The first month of me living on state street, my roommate was out of the country- so I was actually interested in getting this job. 
I went back in a few days later and dropped the resume off, and also sat down for a bite to eat. The GM came over to introduce himself, and told me to come in on Wednesday for an interview. I agreed, and that was that. 
       Wednesday came along, I got ready for the interview- and headed over to the restaurant. I asked for Adam upon arrival, two girls looked around awkwardly and told me to 'hold on.' So I did. Then they came back to inform me that Adam had an "emergency" and was out, that he would give me a call soon to reschedule. 
Okay… I thought it was unprofessional, but whatever shit happens (I know that all too well). 
A few days later I got a missed call from a number I didn't know, I ignored it like I usually do… and just listen to the voicemail if they leave one. This person did… It was Adam. He apologized for missing the interview and asked me to call him back, so I did... "I am so sorry, please come in tomorrow I promise I won't miss this interview unless I am struck by lightning…" (I am sure he said this differently I just know being struck by lightning was used). He seemed incredibly apologetic so I of course agreed. 
         The next day I got ready and headed over for the interview…. "Hi I am here to meet Adam for an interview…" this girl looked at me, "Okay he is not here yet, so you know what, here is the forms you have the job." I filled out the paperwork and she told me to come in on Tuesday. I wasn't too fond of Adam at this point. 
I started on that Tuesday- no one was there to train me. The start of this job was sort of disastrous, but I got through it. 
        A few weeks in, Adam and I had become somewhat friendly. He would ask me "how is it going, do you need any help?" when the other manager was a complete DOUCHE. Adam was the more professional one (which seems odd from the earlier part of the story, but I did later learn that he was dealing with a family emergency).
        One day he came and stood behind the hostess desk with me and asked about my 'story.' I told him a little bit of my life, and blogs purpose, and in turn he shared with me about how his mom has Kidney disease and has been on dialysis for quite awhile. A family came in, in the midst of our chat and I had to take them to their seat. It was interested because as I walked back from seating this family I noticed Adam was still there waiting to finish our talk, I thought it was sweet. 
       After that we became relatively talkative- but I never saw that going any further. I just thought he was a nice guy, and also he was my boss so I couldn't not talk to him ha. 
       Aside from being GM, he was also in charge of all the social media stuff for the restaurant, so after browsing my resume (hmmm, wonder why he was doing that?!) he asked me if I wanted to help with the social media since I had a lot of background with that type of stuff. I said of course. 
He asked me if I wanted to "meet up and talk about the social media, maybe over dinner…on me" hm, am I over thinking this or does this guy want to take me on a date?
We did go out, and it was fun. We had a lot to talk about, and these dinner dates became more and more frequent. He kissed me, and I certainly wasn't opposed to it. And from there our lives just mended. We always spoke. We spent all of our free time together, and we couldn't keep our hands off of each other while at work (which was a problem, and left to me leaving… but I will leave that for another post). 

I am so happy I met this man, he brings out the best possible side of me. I am the crazy and he is the sane, we balance each other out. He motivates me, he looks at me like I am the best possible thing in existence, I have never been looked at quite the way he looks at me. It gives me chills. He calls me beautiful at least 10 times a day, and the word love is used consistently within conversation. He would jump in front a bullet for me, I have no doubts, and I would do the same for him. Our friendship blossomed into this relationship that has changed my life. I had given up men entirely, I was okay with being single, but he came into my life and just flipped everything upside down. This unconditional love he shows me on a daily basis is so pure and true is unlike anything I have ever felt before. 

He also read my blog well before our relationship- so he knew all about me story, phewwww. 

Chronicles of Sampson.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

         Sampson is something else. I feel like one of those moms who says their kid is just the best, smartest, most athletic- meanwhile  everyone else is smiling along acting as if they agree, when they want to call bullshit. But I am serious when I say Sammy is the best. He isn't the smartest- he actually is pretty dopey, but it is part of his charm. He is obsessed with people… but mostly me. Like, to the point where he can't be without me or he will have a panic attack. Privacy while you are showering? HA, yeah right. He guards the door like someone is going to try to barge in. Going to the bathroom… I forget what it was like being alone during that time. I feel like I have a child. I sort of do. He yells at me… I mean literally its a barking/screech telling me I haven't been as attentive to his needs. I lay on the bed… he jumps up and sits on my face. He also thinks he is a lap dog and lays on top of me, not understanding that he is going to one day be massive... like 120lbs.
        It's kinda endearing. Today, Adam and Sampson walked me to our car so we had some more time together before we both went to work (I work from 9-5 and A works from 10-10 so are time is very limited). I arrived to the car, said my good-byes and headed to work. I heard sam barking a bit when I got in the car, but that was usually what he did whenever I left his side, so I plugged my phone in, turned the music on, and left. I pulled out of the lot and noticed Adam on the side walk with Sampson, Sampson was having a melt down. I waved to A, but he didn't wave back. He called me later on in my drive to inform me that he had such a bad panic attack that I left, he refused to walk, was barking like a maniac, and tried chasing after cars thinking I was in them- so, Adam didn't want to wave and attract his attention towards me or he would have went a little more crazy. 
       But can you imagine the people walking by him during his meltdown? Good lord. 
I read that German Shepherds were a one person dog, but I didn't realize to this extent. I love him so, so much regardless of his clingyness. He is just too cute. You should follow his instagram (yes, he has an instagram) because its awesome @SampsonTheShepherd 

Here is a lil preview….

Hello There!

Monday, May 11, 2015

      Alright my blogging consistency is terrible. But I have a full time job, I moved to a new place, and have also had some traumatic things occur … but all in all, I am okay with not blogging. Life is moving, and instead of apologizing to the blogging community- I am happy with where life is moving, and where I am at this moment. 
      Buttttt, regardless of the happiness I have missed this little nook I have to vent/talk/bitch (vent and bitch are two different things)… so here I am, back at it.
And where do I begin? My job is great! I love the people I work with… and have become incredibly close with some of them. My pup pup- he is 5 months now!!! Yes… that little beeb in the post below is 5 months, crazy right? Speaking of 5 months… he gets his balls chopped (gruesome, I know) next month! Which he is not excited about (he only has one ball though, ask me about that for another post), but I am! He will become less cray cray. 
      My Boyfriend… ahhh where do I begin? It is weird for me to even explain this. I remember a year ago I was sitting in my room upset about past relationships, thinking I was destined to never meet a man again, nor did I have any desire to. I even posted an entire post related to 'WHY I AM SINGLE'. During that time I tested out dating sites- nothing ever came from it, but I didn't care. I was okay being alone. Some people don't meet someone that they are with for the rest of their lives and they are okay…I thought I would be okay. But then I met Adam (while I was working as a hostess.. funny story that can be told in another blog post), and things changed. I pushed him away as much as I possibly could- helloooo I am a boss, a bad ass single female who needs NO man- but yet I wanted to be around him at every single moment possible. When I had a funny story- he was the one I needed to tell, when things got difficult… I just needed him to comfort me. This relationship was different, he was kind and gentle, yet put me in my place and motivated me to work harder for what I wanted. He was supportive, a best friend, the kindest man I've ever known, and someone who has shown my unconditional love- a love I have never experienced aside from family members. So that is where we are. 
     I am starring at the prettiest view of Boston, and Adam is passed out so peacefully…let me tell you about that in another blog post too! I am sorry I am leaving so much blank, but seriously I don't want to having nada to blog about and go MIA again, so I am leaving some things open ended. 
     Also, I need to make a special mention for my auntie Madeline who passed away on mothers day. She was the hardest, toughest, and at the same time, the kindest woman I have ever known- and she has a sea of people up in heaven waiting for her. I know that Ashley will be waiting with open arms. 

    Thank you everyone for sticking with me during this long hiatus- life is great aside from a few hiccups...And I will make sure to keep updating! 

I am a mother.

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

I am a mother. You read that right, I am now a mom.. my child is of the animal form, but puppies can't be that much different from babies (aliens). And if they are, well my son is the best form of the birth control from having an actual human child. I suck at introductions... meet my son Sampson.

Yup.. that is him, that isn't just a doll, that thing of perfection above is all mine. He is a pure bred German Shephard, and those paws- hellllllo 120lb dog to be.
My boyfriend bought him for me as a valentines day/ birthday gift. Have I told you how much I love Adam? I swear I am not just saying this because he gave me my child (ha, sounds weird), but seriously he is the best!!!
I will leave you with a million more pictures because ... what else could be better?


To all you in the 'no vaccination' clan....

Tuesday, February 10, 2015


 *This is all my personal opinion, and it touches in a personal subject, feel free to X out if you don't like what I write. 

          'Fads’, we just gotta get use to them because they will always be around. Every few years or so we start seeing something that just sticks, whether it be a style, word, group, whatever it is, it is something that more and more people want to be apart of because of the hype. Examples? Sure, gluten free foods- only eating organic foods- the all green lifestyle- love for bell-bottom jeans- the hate for bell-bottom jeans, the list goes on, and on. Granted, these things are perfectly acceptable for people to live by; that’s the thing about our society, we make the rules of how we live. Although many people swear these choices are made based on their own decisions and research, it seems they become more and more common with the level of 'in' they have in society, celebrities ranting and raving about the hot topic, people are bound to jump on the bandwagon, am I right? Hell, if Jennifer Lawrence is saying it’s the right thing to do, a sista just might do it. 
            Now, the list of 'in' things I just stated is something that I don't mind people becoming a part of. To each there own, if you want to avoid anything with gluten- hell, you may miss out on some tasty foods, but again, that’s a choice YOU make.. And that’s the best part; it only affects YOU. Fad’s that only affect you- more POWER to you. But that’s the problem, sitting right by all these 'no harm fads', there are harmful ones, a particular one causes a rush of anger to flush through my body just from thinking about it.  This fad doesn't just affect the person involved; no this impacts the world around them. This is the 'anti vaccine' fad of parents. I just really can't wrap my head around this ridiculous decision, and it personally makes me sick. Lets lay down a few facts for you before I dive into why this makes me so angry- first,  
"A vast minority of parents across the country, around 1.8 percent, opt out of vaccines by citing either religious or philosophical reasons. THIS [stupid] decision has had 16 states report cases of measles, making 2013 the second worst year for the disease since 2000. In August, the illness struck 21 people linked to a single Texas megachurch that eschewed vaccinations. And just last week, a new study concluded that vaccine refusals were largely to blame for a 2010 outbreak of whooping cough in California."  There is evidence of outbreaks and more illness due to the lack of vaccination.
               These statistics should be proof enough for parents to smarten up? Wrong. You have people like Jenny McCarthy and Kristin Cavallari continuing to promote this nonsense (equating autism to vaccination, with no scientific proof… when did people stop listening to science?)
These parents don't understand the harm they are putting into our world- causing outbreaks for a disease that was eliminated by the US, 'measles,' doesn't that say something to them? Doesn't that prove this whole idea of no vaccinations is only hurting our population.
But what pushes my buttons the most in regards to this ridiculous issue; it proves how selfish the human race truly is. It proves that these parents couldn’t care less about the well being of the child sitting across from theirs at lunch. It proves that stubbornness outweighs intelligence, and that the saying ‘ignorance is bliss’ shines all too bright for some.
             But why, instead of just rolling my eyes at the uneducated individuals that announce their stance, do I let it hit home? Well, I was born into a family with two immunosuppressed sisters. My sisters were born with Cystic Fibrosis- their immune systems were shot from the beginning of their lives. Pneumonia was going around? You knew they had to endure a hospital stint. As all the rest of the kids were running around the playground, my sisters were missing from that fun excursion. Missing from things became frequent for them, birthday parties, field trips, rehearsals… all because the flu that your child also got- affected them with much more intensity, it reeked havoc inside their bodies. They had to be hooked up to all sorts of IVs as they were contained to a hospital room to stare at the bare walls, pretending the sterile whiteness was a colorful jungle gym so that their imaginations could join the fun events that they were physically unable to.But, when flu season had passed, and their wasn't a 24 hour bug floating around- my sisters jumped back into all of the things young kids should be involved with. Their lives transitioned from being bed ridden, to now active. They even had moments where they forgot about this devastating, incurable disease that lived inside them.
            Think about all the other kids who are immunosuppressed, think about the kids who have incurable diseases, or the ones who can't get vaccinated because the vaccination will only cause more suppression towards their already suppressed system- these kids don't want to be locked away in their bedroom once they've been released from the hospital, they want to enjoy their lives with as much freedom as possible. They want to go to school, walk around the hallway as if the word disease had never been invented. Unfortunately, because of the ignorance we live with, they can’t be so worry free. Now they must worry about the children who walk by them, because of the parents who still let there unvaccinated child roam freely around the same hallways as the child with cancer. The selfish decision made by these parents is devastating.
I just read a story of a young cancer patient who contracted the measles while at Disney World due to an unvaccinated child. THIS- I don’t even have to write this blog post, I don’t have to bitch and moan and call these parents selfish, that one little story says enough. But after reading it, I was so angry I just needed to add my two cents.
         Now let me touch on the celebrity ‘anti vaccine’ movement that has caused more and more everyday people to join in on this stupidity.  Without scientific proof, these people have jumped on the delusion that vaccinations cause autism… besides going into the, THERE IS NO SCIENTIFIC PROOF YOU JUST SOUND DUMB, raid, I want to touch on something that didn’t sit well with me, what these parents are saying, in a roundabout way is- “we so badly don’t want our kids to have autism that we are willing to put them in harms way by keeping them from vaccinations- we are willing to introduce them to devastating illnesses, some with fatal side effects…because autism is worse” And if you want to argue that its unlikely they could die without vaccinations (unlikely being the key word there because you are leaving that up to chance), then let me lay down another thought, just so you are aware of how terrible your decision is- you so badly don’t want your child to have autism you are risking another child’s life. A CHILDS LIFE IS WORTH LESS THEN YOUR CHILD HAVING AUTISM. DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE SAYING? Okay. I can’t even say anything else or I may toss my laptop out the window. 

The daily questions.

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Do you ever go through a day asking yourself a million and one questions? You never actually ask these questions aloud, nor would you know whom to even ask, they just pass through your mind. Okay maybe I am the only one but I have a litany of questions- so here goes.

  • This one relates to Boston. WHY IS IT THAT DRIVING IN THE NORTH SHORE AND SOUTH SHORE is like driving in two different countries?  My boyfriend lives on the South Shore, I barely ever drove around here before dating him, and I swear, once you cross over the Zakim bridge your speedometer automatically DROPS 20 MPH. Its like our cars are programmed to automatically slow down in the South Shore. You would NEVER see someone driving in the fast lane at 65 MPH in the North Shore, but that is like speeding in the South Shore. I can only talk for I-93. But. It. Boggles. My. Mind.
  • I like rap, I really love me some ghetto rap too. But sometimes I listen to songs (and I have skills at knowing every lyric to every song… I turn straight Busta Rhymes and can speed through lyrics) and wonder how they are okay singing these degrading lyrics towards woman, knowing they have young daughters. Cough Lil Wayne cough.
  • Is the girl on the Bachelor really a virgin? (Actually, from the looks of how she was kissing Chris- that is a yes) but why is she? And don’t get me wrong, if you are choosing to stay abstinent more power to you- but this girl clearly doesn’t want to be a virgin, so why at 26, is she? 
  • Why do so many actors become singers?
  • Why does Chris Soules kiss everyone?
  • Where is Juan Pablo today?
  • Why the heck DOES anyone say "you are still hungry!?" as you are putting a piece of food in your mouth, or "didn't you just eat?" *with those judges eyes. Hmm, no I am not still hungry I just enjoy the motion of putting food in my mouth you twat.
  • If someone asks me “are you feeling okay?” and I reply “yes.” then why do they then open their mouths and say, “oh because you look really pale…” if I said I am fine- you should probably have just kept your mouth shut. Just a thought.
  • Why do people tell me to ‘smile’ when I am walking by myself down the street?
  • Why do people like cats?
  • How is it the year 2015 and there are no cars driving in the sky?

Okay well, that’s it for today… there will undoubtedly be more questions to come.